Emotions are fleeting. It's true.
Was mass spamming people's instagram today out of boredom. And kind of cool too. HAHAHAHHA.
The other group did it, but I wasn't that close with them. So ya. Hahahaha.
Negative thoughts kept floating in my head like few weeks ago? LOL.
Said it out and it got better. Kind of made myself do it with this insta-liking thing, HAHA.
Properly looked at the ex and read the insta posts.
After having time being temporarily blocked on instagram (again, lol), I asked myself, how was it?
I felt nothing. Lol.
And eh, she wasn't as pretty as how I remembered when I first saw her picture. Lolll.
And does it mean I don't like my bf anymore? HAHAHAHAHAH.
That said, it reminds me of something.
There was once this guy that I kind of liked.
My heart would always go into overdrive when I'm about to talk to him.
So I made myself calm my heart down and talk to him.
Then I realized I don't like him anymore when I could talk to him properly. LOL.
Was I only in love with the feeling of 心跳加速?
I think so.
Though there are times when I talk a lot to this person, after some period when things have died down, I would think 'Oh I actually liked this person'.
I read articles about people talking about love.
The times I've used the word love, I didn't know what I'm supposed to feel.
It's like my real self is not here, but just watching how I react to people, and how people react to me.
